The Heart

A little over a week ago, I offered to rebuild DJQuad's dream house once built by Koto but, because Koto isn't around anymore, he cannot update it. This house was originally built almost 2 years ago. It's seriously out of date and wasn't finished 100% either. Being that DJQuad has always meant the world to me and that I have the skills to make his dream house happen, I offered to rebuild it with all the upgrades. It took a bit of convincing to do but, he finally agreed. But now I wonder, will my heart go with the house?

In all honesty, I never ever had any ulterior motives for building this house. I simply wanted to do something nice for someone I care for and love. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that. Everyone deserves to be able to live in their dream house and, sometimes, a virtual world is all we have to show for it. But the longer it takes for me to complete this house, the more attached I am getting to a man who will never commit to me. So, that leaves me with a few options: 1- stop all building now to save my own heart or 2 - accept the situation as it is as I offered to build the house consciously knowing what would happen... The heart wants more and the head knows nothing more than a friendship will happen. when the house is built, everything will be back to normal which is us not seeing each other for days and, sometimes, weeks at a time with hardly any words exchanged.

I love him but love isn't enough.

~Vasanti~